Alive!

My blog is once again alive . (:
I spend my time happily at St James on Thursday
but some ass don't allow me to go clubbing ):
And xiaozhu & co. forgotten to take photo. Argh.
Its was fun after all. Catching 'How to train
your dragon' tomorrow. (: Meeting my Darling
tomorrow and I'm going to throw my bi aside .
If he saw this I think he is going to
tie me up already. haha.


I think i failed badly as a girlfriend to you.
I didn't accompany you when you need me the
most and left you alone. I still have the mood
to enjoy myself while you're upset. I didn't
did what I promise, I break my promise again
and again but you trusted me. All i can do now

is to be good girl in school. But its okay for me

to bully and abuse my boyfriend. haha.

Unhappy.

I'm unhappy , Very unhappy.
I don't like going home , I bet both of you regret giving birth to me.
I only add on to troubles, so I'm not going back.
You report me missing , its okay . I wouldn't be so stupid to stay out late
and wait for police to bring me back to the lock up. You said i only know how to stretch my hand out for money , i want to work you don't allow me to work.
Just purely because you said i can't concentrate well on my studies and my job now is only to study well. But I'm not satisfied with what i have now and you said you don't have so much to give me. Someone did say something that makes sense , don't ask what you parent have given you , ask yourself what have you given to your parents. I did ask myself , so I said i want to work so they don't have to give me anything but i know i gave them a lot of trouble . I just want to give them lesser trouble so I'm not going back . I'm running away from everything , it maybe temporary only . At least Ive time of my own , unlike at home . I want to be alone for a few hours they don't allow , they will knock the door and get things they want , check what am i doing , worst of all sit down there doing nothing in my room and said want to stay in my room. I teared you said i shed crocodile tears and i pretend to be good and nice. Other parents will still be heart broken upon seeing them cry , i guess you'll not. You said i hate you , i never . Maybe its just that you hate me and want to assume i hate you too. To those that are worried : Please don't bother to look for me , its just wasting your time , even you saw me you can't do anything , if i wanted to run , i will not go back.
To that silly guy , I'm upset because you landed in hospital because of me .
I'm touched by what you did , at least i still know you care. Thanks. Takecare and don't bother about me anymore.

Blank mind.

Can time rewind? I've no goals and aim at all. I felt so aimless
and useless. With no goals and aims ahead , my days just past day by day.
Now a days , i use to spent time on thinking what i want. But end up , Nothing.
I'm totally sank into what i'm thinking of and i can spent 30 mins on that. Maybe thats day dreaming , I do that very often like an idiot. The days without him is getting better day by day but not forgetting him.
Bye.

Limitation.

W-zone tournament is going on and i'm happy!
I'm going to play with teck whye sec tommorow. (:
I'm currently doing my homework and posting .
I'm good girl okay! Things are getting worst in school and i HATE school.
Blah blah.. Bye bitchass.

If you know what have recently happened to me , don't ask if I'm okay . I'm just irritated by that . No offence. (: Everyday is just home, school , home. Boring okay! But its will be fun having Kqy + exit pass. If have Kqy , its useless . Haha. Joking only.
I can say that school life is getting fun . But no matter how fun , I still hate my Mt teacher ttm. I wrote a letter to Kqy , the words are from my bottom of my heart . I wrote it when i 'm sad , end up Kqy tells me she felt sad and touched. HAHA! That's show that i can express my feelings through words and I'm good writer! haha. A very bad news , i need to go for counselling again! Just because of my hand. ARGH .Bye.

School sucks ttm!

I dislike the teachers , I hate the school rules.
Some of the teachers are kind and friendly , like my friend.
Some sucks ttm! Meeting Ms O tmrw because my hair . Attire problem again.
Draw circles during lessons , PERFECT circle . Wanxuan says , only idiots can draw perfect circle. I drew one out and wrote "Only idiots can draw PERFECT circle. Ps , I'm one of them." My world is going upside down. Ciao~

New year.

Everything that happened in last year , no matter its a good or bad memories.
Let the past be gone. Look forward to the days ahead . I believe it will be a better year.

Countdown at vivo with Natalie , Joyce and Xiaozhu. I only remember buying cigg and vodka then went outdoors countdown then headed to sentosa. Drink and smoked while walking with that Sexy bitch , Joyce. There are kind Samaritan who drove us to palawan beach instead of spending a hour to reach there. Searching for Daoxian high and low. Xiaozhu said that i was drunk. But its okay , the worst of all is that i kept on shouting. Joyce have no choice but to kiss me . I rinses my mouth like mad. I became awake and starts talking to boyfriend on phone. Natelie and joyce left at 3 .
Walk across the brigde. I was pestering them for vodka.

Daoxian , that haopengyou of mine then pass me a bottle of vodka. Finally , i have one big bottle to myself. I drank a few mouth of it and his friend took it away. I continue smoking , i didn't know that natalie phoned my boyfriend. He arrived after awhile. I was once awake at 4 plus and realise i left one stick of cigg. I finished 3/4 of the whole packet of cigg. Slacked and met daoxian for awhile . Left sentosa , trained to jp , breakfast , fairprice. Went xiaozhu house took my stuff , went home showered and slept.